God IS real. You made your mistakes, be forgiven, get up quickly.

 just be patient there is no hurry. YOU ARE YOUNG

 Why do you waste so much time obsessing over him? He is your boyfriend, he should love you back. Let it go, he "lusts" you. It is not love, otherwise you wouldn't cry everyday.

 You might be completely heart broken now, but once he tries to grow a "beard", lets his hair turn into an afro, stops playing football and still has his braces after 6 years, you'll realize that you're going to be alright...

 Stop drinking so much. You will hurt many people and ultimately yourself. If you had paid more attention to your drinks you wouldn't have been taken advantage of and you would've been able to prevent the situation you ended in. You are not that girl.

 It Gets Better!

 Grieve. No matter what anyone says, let it out. But don't forget that one day you'll be happy again.

 Stop comparing yourself to your older brother and stop trying to be like him. Embrace your own personality and learn to make your own decisions.