On that bus ride, don't tell him it won't happen because you love his best friend. Trust me, it hurts a lot when he starts dating yours.

 Take her seriously. Don't get caught up in your own little problems. She needs help. Reach out to her. Stop her

 Run away while you can.

 Don't spread rumors about yourself, your parents will believe them and the damage done there will last far beyond your "cool party rep"

 Its not that you weren't good enough and its not that he didn't love you. Its that it wasn't your time and it will probably never be. Just move on. YOU deserve better.

 Whenever you feel like it's not going to get better, remember that whoever or whatever you're crying over, its not the end of your world. There is so much more out there waiting for you to discover.

 You made a mistake, and yes your drinking got us a four inch scar but darling you're only fourteen and you lost your daddy. You quit drinking and you hang out with people that care about you. We were never young, We never had a chance, but keep soldiering on! You are loved and needed.

 Your inability to say "no" to girls is going to get you into put you in terrible situations. She is a leech. Grow a pair, bite the bullet, and break up with her now. It will be off better for both of you. If you don't learn now, you are going to repeat this with 2 other girls.